The Season

I've been super busy, as I am every year at this time. Everyone wants me at their parties (not as a guest, but to perform) and friends tend to want to take advantage and think they can get me for next to nothing. Love and hate this time of year, as I've said before, time is not my friend and I have much less of it now. At least I get to play-not my music, but I love all music. I DO get sick of playing the same damn Christmas songs over and over again. Thank you again to THE Michael for lighting a fire under me to write some more-sorry I don't have something more to say at this time. I'll write more later.

Insomnia

It doesn't happen often, but every now and then I suffer from a night of insomnia, as I did last night. I am opposed to taking pills, so that is NOT an option. Careful what you wish for I guess, I had my time to myself, time to contemplate life, time to sit and star-gaze. It was very peaceful, the night critters were eerily silent-so it was just me and the night.

"Altar"-Ego

(Not my altar, just a cool one I saw on the web)

At work, I hide behind my books. When I'm playing my music I hide behind my piano. I'm terrified of being in the public eye to the point of anxiety attacks at times. Some people call it stage fright, I don't know what to call it. But when I'm behind my Altar I don't feel the need to hide. My heart doesn't race like it does in all other scenarios. I have no fear, no anxiety, as if when I walk into that circle someone else takes over...I call her my Altar-Ego.

TIME

Happy Turkey Day to all. I've just been contemplating how to begin my blog, and time has gotten away from me. It seems to do that a lot lately. Time is not my friend, no matter how much time it seems I have, it's never enough. Between working and taking care of family, there seems to be no time for ME. Not to be selfish, I love my family and there is nothing I wouldn't do for them, but when is it my turn? I try to make time for myself, plan to do things for me, and again time is stolen from me before I even knew it was there. I never seem to have the energy with the little time I do have, and I end up wasting it. I guess that's life.